First Day!

I had my first day at work. I liked it a lot. I love my job because it's a small business and the owners are very involved and I feel like I am part of a family, not just co-workers. I messed up a little bit and am praying for grace that the customer won't notice and no repercussions will come on the business because of my sloppy job, and have resolved to reveal my mistakes in the future. Today, the Lord has reallty been speaking to me about being a responsible leader. To not have any idols in my life because it will affect the young men I am leading. My life is really challenging right now, but like Carrie said, well the Lord really, "always be at the end of your rope". I feel like I have been living at the end of my rope for months. But it keeps me relying on the Lord, and not my own strength. I love and thank Him so much for redeeming my life from bondage. He has set me free, and freedom is truly that in my life, I am not boxed in, I am not comfortable or constrained. I feel like God has pushed me out of a plane at 10,000 ft. and I am in free fall, but I am only going upwards to victory. And I know no matter how bad I screw up, He will be there to catch me. If I fall to the ground. He will carry me back into the plane, take me up in the plane again until I regain consciousness and push me out again. I've come to realize that I am never going to stop feeling uncomfortable, at the edge of myself because God will always lead me into conquest. I can't wait around long enough and I won't have to conquer one day. His grace, love, mercy and compassion is ALWAYS there for me. His purpose, vision, and plan for my life will ALWAYS be there for me. I will not choose to stay in my fear, depression, self-pity, inferiority, insecurity anymore. They are not my friend. Jesus is my friend, He is the one who died for me, who showed me how to live as a Son and not a slave. Father, owe you everything! Thank You!

Dependent on God

God has been showing me lately how dependent I am on other people. In every area, but especially emotionally. If someone says or does one thing that makes me feel rejected, I completely lose it. If someone doesn't do what I want or doesn't do something my way, I am instantly angry and annoyed. I know that that is not God's character. He loves me so much, I know. But I have been rejecting that to stay in my self-pity and depression. But God wants me to receive the new garments, the new identity He has put before me. The person that Jesus payed for on the cross. My name is no longer rejected. God has accepted me and that is what I rely on. I am dependent on Jesus, His Blood, and the cross every moment of every day. It is my salvation, my redemption, my healing, my acceptance in to God's inheritance. Today I choose to live in my acceptance.

Rhema Verses

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom,
and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding"

- Proverbs 9:10

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

-Jeremiah 1:5

"The LORD is with you, mighty warrior."

-Judges 6:12b

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

-Joshua 1:9